“Oh my God…eww…(crinkling paper)…are u serious?…his name is Sean…Sean? I don’t know him.”

I swear I am going to punch one of these hoes in their face. SHUT THE FUCK UP.! these two bitches in my class will get body slammed in a few minutes. You are in a CLASS. A college environment. And u are extremely loud. Didn’t your parents teach you fuckin manners? What the fuck. I keep giving them very dirty looks but I guess they are as ignorant as they are loud. And one keeps burping. Pig. There are 8 people in this class & we have to listen to different forms of music OVER their conversation. Have some respect. Damn dirty sluts. Smh.

His hands explore every inch of my frame
making it impossible for me to breathe.
flushed lips in between teeth
gripping
grabbing
grinding
gnawing
the sound of my heartbeat drowning out muffled moans
eyes clear
head full of tears.
hope
desire
mania
envy
lustful green eyes
always playing mistress to his invisible wife.

I wish this one-sided love affair will never end.

Can u be soulmates with someone who has no soul?

It was the first thing you gave me. Probably the last. And I lost it.

Thoughts of the past plague my mind

Forcing me to wonder if i’ve made the right decision

What if i would’ve found the time?

Maybe things might’ve been different.

Sometimes I wish I could take it all back

To the days when you were just an ordinary dude

I’d retrace my steps at Lehman, wouldn’t have been so rude

I would’ve told Shantel she couldn’t have you when she came asking for permission

Making you my man would’ve been my mission

But now ya name’s upgraded cuz of fame

I’m always hoping you don’t let it get to your brain

I know the shorties be flockin and dudes stay jockin

But to me, you’ll always remain the same.

The shy guy who followed me to English class

Who taught me how to use a bong

And inadvertenly put me on to the Boondocks and Incubus

I’ve shared something with you that I denied to others

So I hope I’m just not another name on that LONG ASS list

But as I sit in bed, writing this

I can’t help but to reminisce

And I’ll always wonder what if…

Is it okay to love someone who may never really love you back?

Love is an emotion. No doubt in my mind on that one. Yes, emotions can come and go. But for the most part, a strong connection with someone can possibly last forever. I am…I would say, in love. However, I have a strong feeling he would disagree & tell me its all in my head. That’s perfectly fine. Love, strong connection. Whatever you want to call it. I know how I feel about him, and others can tell from the way I look at him when he’s not looking. There’s not one thing I would change about him or the situation. Everything happens for a reason and God would never give me more than I can bare. [Listen to me blab on &on]
When you love someone, you tend to settle for any time with this person that you can get.
When you love yourself, you fight for the person that makes you happiest.

I may not show it but deep down inside, all I want is to be happy and live the way I’ve always dreamed.
Sometimes, just maybe there really IS a silver lining in every cloud. Life can be a fairy-tale. Not based on society’s definition of it but your own. Everyone deserves to be content within themselves and their partner. && everything does happen for a reason. If this isn’t the real thing, it surely is a hell of a preface to whats to come. Only time will tell. Ugh. A jumble of words. But it all makes sense in the warped birds nest I call a mind. Love knows no boundaries.