If I Ran The Zoo

so..

Tanielle — Mon, 08 Aug 2011 16:55:31 +0000

people are so selfish. why bother?

Tanielle — Mon, 23 May 2011 03:05:06 +0000

I’m so fucking tired of this shit. It’s really getting old, I have no one to talk to…well, no one who listens. I’m tired of crying and feeling worthless. What’s the point?

This shit is CRAZY!!!!! Is this the Salem Witch Trials?

Tanielle — Sat, 21 May 2011 06:26:41 +0000

my heart hasn’t smiled in a long time. && i’m not quite sure if it’s worth this constant pain. i Googled “my boyfriend doesn’t forgive me” and found a few people in my situation asking for advice. I started bawling when I read this:

“Let this go, you both need a lot of healing, and time apart, out of relationships. Understand, you both have too many resentments to even give each other half a chance, and while you don’t see your lying as a big deal he does, and hasn’t gotten over it, and never will while you two are still not able to even argue without past hurts being brought up. Not only that, what broke you up in the first place, is still very much alive, and well and working against you.
You are forcing things now, not working together, and thats typical when a relationship fails, and even the break up failed, because their was no time taken for a proper healing, but I doubt either of you will understand until you really start hating each other.
You could try counseling together, but without hands on guidance, neither one of you will find a way to help each other until there is a peaceful, thoughtful time away from each other.”

Ugh. I’m so FUCKING tired of crying!! I feel like he doesn’t give a fuck anyway. If he did, why would he keep bringing up all these negative feelings instead of trying to move past them?? So now I’m stuck here crying my eyes out and hurting, while he’s sleeping peacefully. Like, really? I have no faith in anything anymore.. I’m just hoping I wake up from this horrible nightmare.

We could’ve had something amazing.

Tanielle — Fri, 13 May 2011 04:54:09 +0000

am i wrong for despising and HATING every woman you’ve ever been with? like, i really don’t want to do anything that reminds me of them.

bleh.

Here We Go!

Tanielle — Wed, 11 May 2011 04:25:09 +0000

Maybe…I expect too much from you. Maybe…I expect too much from our relationship. I just want to be happy. I want to wake up in the morning with a smile on my face and not go to bed at night with tear stained cheeks. I ~~want..~~ HAVE to make a better life for myself. I admit I’ve grown accustomed to my parents taking care of me. But is it really so bad to like other people taking care of you? A relationship is supposed to be a solid bond, with both people being there for each other (emotionally, physically, financially). Neither of us are fully supportive of the other. It’s a constant struggle. I need to be able to depend on you and I want you to depend on me.

Ugh. I have so much to say and yet no words are forming.

Tanielle — Wed, 11 May 2011 03:45:37 +0000

i really shouldn’t have to repeatedly ask the same question. do i speak German?

Tanielle — Wed, 11 May 2011 03:41:11 +0000

people are so fucked up. but…why am i surprised?