If I Ran The Zoo

…… <3

Tanielle — Tue, 08 Dec 2009 00:29:53 +0000

Yay!!!!

May 09

Tanielle — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 09:16:05 +0000

11.20.09 4:12 am
A few months ago.. probably in a drunken, disillusioned state I promised to make something happen.
And I meant every word.
God only gives me as much as I can bear. He is the reason why I will always follow my heart. Its only a matter of time.

What she’ll never admit.

Tanielle — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 08:45:05 +0000

Last night I had a dream that you woke up. You woke up & saw what was right in front of you all along. You realized how madly in love I am and that I’ll never stop. My heart breaks every minute I can’t be with you and nothing can heal it but your hands. You already have it, I gave it to you with no intention to take it back. And you (gently) laid it down next to Michael and the Fantasy Factory dude. Everytime you walk away, you step on it without even bothering to glance down. Pieces of it stick to the bottom like gum & everywhere you go, a part of me shadows. No hugs. No kisses. No touching. In public. The sound of my tears drowns out the silent cracking of the thing I permanently wear on my sleeve, that I tell ppl I put there so no one would break it. I take as much as I can get, but I feel hopelessly confused as to why I have to take when it should be mine to begin with. The butterflies never go away. They just reciprocate and eat away at my insides. Crazy? Maybe. Confused? Definitely. Confident? A little.
Hearts are often broken by words left unspoken. 6 mos turns into a year & something’s gotta give. However, I’ll continue this charade either until my dream becomes a reality or until…forever. But I’ll never admit it. No one understands more than you.

hence why I only talk when no one is listening.

Hysteria.

Tanielle — Mon, 12 Oct 2009 21:24:18 +0000

“Oh my God…eww…(crinkling paper)…are u serious?…his name is Sean…Sean? I don’t know him.”

I swear I am going to punch one of these hoes in their face. SHUT THE FUCK UP.! these two bitches in my class will get body slammed in a few minutes. You are in a CLASS. A college environment. And u are extremely loud. Didn’t your parents teach you fuckin manners? What the fuck. I keep giving them very dirty looks but I guess they are as ignorant as they are loud. And one keeps burping. Pig. There are 8 people in this class & we have to listen to different forms of music OVER their conversation. Have some respect. Damn dirty sluts. Smh.

Love affair

Tanielle — Mon, 12 Oct 2009 21:08:47 +0000

His hands explore every inch of my frame
making it impossible for me to breathe.
flushed lips in between teeth
gripping
grabbing
grinding
gnawing
the sound of my heartbeat drowning out muffled moans
eyes clear
head full of tears.
hope
desire
mania
envy
lustful green eyes
always playing mistress to his invisible wife.

I wish this one-sided love affair will never end.

out of curiosity..

Tanielle — Thu, 08 Oct 2009 03:37:59 +0000

Can u be soulmates with someone who has no soul?

…

Tanielle — Mon, 21 Sep 2009 23:29:48 +0000

It was the first thing you gave me. Probably the last. And I lost it.