If I Ran The Zoo

We are all a little weird and life’s a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.
-Anonymous

Don’t mind the post title. It’s an inside joke with myself. God, I have no life…Quiero amanecer contigo. =(

Time: early; Listening to: “Doing Too Much”- Paula DeAnda; Wanting: To watch the sunrise; Thinking: About ice cream; RAMBLING TIME……

How many times have you dated someone and get the feeling that they compare you to their ex? It’s just something that’s been on my mind the past few days. I’m currently S I N G L E and I know I’m a good catch and that when I’m with a man, he need not want for anything. But when you know a guy who was dating someone (for what seemed like forever) that appears to be the total opposite of you…I can’t help but wonder what he saw in her, what he sees in me & what she had that I don’t. [Lol, I know I keep switching between speaking in general to first person. I have a touch of ADD, bare with me.] Anyway, you can’t go out of your way to make him forget the ex, he has to do that on his own. So what do you do? Pretend like you’re good enough even though you’re obviously not because the bitch ex’s name keeps getting dragged into conversation? Ahhh, what’s wrong with me? I already know what to do…. Keep pretending it doesn’t bother you until it goes away or you become blissfully ignorant to anything related to her. If that doesn’t work for you, focus your energy on something else and force your feelings to fade.

This post doesn’t make much sense to me.. I just figured seeing the words somewhere else besides my head would help me understand them. No such luck. Tired of reading? Good, because I’m tired of writing.

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“Hold up..born in ‘88? How old is that?..Old enough.” – “Poke Her Face” Kid Cudi ft Kanye, Common

Time: 2:46 AM; Listening to: A playlist made for some1 very special 2 me.. Currently “Everyone Nose (Rmx) ft CRS & Pusha T”; Reading: The Adventures of Spiderman ..check it out on my blogroll over that way >>> ; Feeling: Great..thinking about the person who invades my mind every day; buuut i AM upset that my computer won’t dowload this game i wanna play =(   _______

[i don't know why i just gave a sypnosis of my current state. hm.]   Finally going to sleep. Well, going to study until my eyes give in. Tomorrow (today) will be a day of accomplishment. I just have to figure out how. Feigning for Carvel ice cream. And very determined to get it.. Wednesday is Buy 1 Get 1 Free people. Oooh and Wednesdays means Real World. yay. The point of this post? who knows. who cares. I just felt like posting crap today. Sue me.

I added a “Pictures” page for anyone who cares. Just random stuff. It’ll be updated often.

Mo, i tried to follow you but Blogspot is different than WordPress and it won’t let me! But I check it daily so, same difference doll.

Good night all.

–God will never give you something somebody else is supposed to have.

Written June 26, 2004. (Was a poem but…I’d rather type it like this)

I’ve realized that most of my life and time was being wasted. Wasted on people who are not worth my time. I’ve realized that all of my energy was being used up for nothing. I’ve realized that I need to put forth more into myself. I’m tired of people who use me, get my love & abuse me. I’ve realized that I’m worth something. I don’t need to be with anyone who doesn’t love me for who I am. I deserve more than a lousy phone call. Someone who won’t give their all doesn’t deserve me. I finally realized who I am. I finally took notice and I’m glad I faced the facts.

I am a better person than you. All because I WANT my dreams to come true. I’m tired of sitting around and waiting for you to get your shit straight. I’m sorry we can’t be together. I’m sorry I found a man who treats me better. You are so confusing. But I know I am too. I’m tired of you stressin me & putting me down. I’m sorry I lead you on but I need to let go. You do too. It’s gonna be hard but we’ll make it through. I found someone new. Get a grip. It’s time you faced the facts.

*I dont know. Just felt like posting it. Half of it is how I’m feeling now. I can only live for myself.

“Never be with someone who you love more than they love you” [i think thats how it goes =) ]    -Karimah’s grandmother

A short animated film that shows what most of us do in the morning. (I know I do!)

So. I’m sitting home watchin “Fade to Black” on Fuse. I REALLY need to get the DVD. No one has had a bigger influence in the rap game than these two men. I don’t care what anyone says.

Pharrell is…. a genius. Jay is the master. And when the two unite, you get heaven on Earth. Hm. I need to go to a concert. ASAP

Blueprint 3. September 11, 2009. Exactly 8 years after the Blueprint 1… [Note: Do NOT try to contact me on this day. You will definitely be disappointed!]

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More than halfway through another year. Getting back on the right track and LOVING it. I’ve realized that it makes no sense to waste time on the things that really don’t matter as much as I think they do. The best things in life take patience and I’m learning to just go with the flow and not rush a good thing. School’s good. Work’s…as good as it’s gonna get. Friends and family are amazing. So no complaints on my end.

Had an amazing week. Family came to visit. Enjoyed beating my brother in law in some Clue and spending time with them. Topped it off with an ♥amazing♥ weekend with my boos. I don’t know where I’d be without them. {Just wish my cousin was here!} AAAAND! I’ve come to terms with a lot of things. Including my feelings. For right now, they’re better off on the backburner. And I think I like it that way. Anyway, Happy belated 4th of July to the people who actually celebrate it!

Gonna go study some more && go to bed.

Sometimes, it takes somebody who treats you right to show you there’s something else out there — [i stole it from the chick from the Hills, Lo] =)