If I Ran The Zoo

Patiently waiting for the Blueprint 3… plus, my man Drake is supposed to feature on one of the tracks. lalalala.. life is good.

So0o, even though my boo was reading off the phone [he does NOT freestyle, he has to write em down.. =) he's said it plenty of times], i still love him. This man. Is. Amazing. I do not understand how I used to go to Toronto all the time when I was younger and have NOT met him. Grr. lol, i’m buggin. I’m not sure what went on with him and Keshia Chante but one day [mark my words] one day, he and I will meet. Then I’ll be happy!
God, I need to go to sleep.
“Leave your two cents, I ain’t tryna leave you broke”
-Aubrey Drake Graham


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Is it bad that I’m tired of hearing about Michael Jackson via facebook and media websites? Some people actin like they knew him personally. I understand he was a music LEGEND but nigga, YOU didn’t live next door to the man or anything! =/ Sorry MJ! I’m just sayin. People actin like Farrah Fawcett didn’t die also! :smh:

Edit: jun 29th 09. Don’t think i’m being disrespectful to Michael. That was not my intention. I just feel that some people overdo it (kids that are like..12 and don’t really know much about Michael). Thats all. Oh. And props to BET for pulling the tribute together so quick.

Venting time!!
If you love something let it go. If it comes back, it’s yours.

Even though it may have been rushed, I KNOW my emotions like the back of my hand. If I can not stop thinking about someone, despite all their bull crap..something’s there. I feel like a drug addict..well, replace drug with him. I don’t understand why I feel this way because you’ve already made it somewhat clear. But I know that things could be wonderful if the opportunity just presented itself. [You guys may think I'm rambling but I don't care, I just need to get it out to anyone that's willing to listen] Playing the mushy love songs doesn’t work, neither does playing the hardcore ish because EVERYTHING seems to remind me of you. Sometimes I wish I could just stop thinking about you but it’s obvious I can’t. I can’t even say you’re playing with my head because you’re not. You’ve told me from the beginning how it was and I’m just too stubborn to accept it. I miss your lips and you holding my hand and just being able to look at you and know what you’re thinking. If I could rewind my life back to August, I would. I would’ve never let you and HER have your first date. And I would erase the silly, stupid mistakes I’ve made. Maybe then things would have been different. Maybe then I could sleep at night and not toss and turn wondering what may have been and resisting the urge to push your speed dial (yes, you’re on speed dial!). I hate you because of how I feel but love you for it at the same time. It only takes me a few days to know how I feel about someone and I knew from that one night that I would start to have feelings for you. And i know, without a shadow of a doubt that you have feelings for me too. So cut the crap. I’m bettering myself. But one element is missing. Eff rushing it and eff working on myself first. I’m fixed. I’m getting out of the situation I’m in and I wish I had someone there to lean on and tell me everything will be okay. Hm. I’m starting to not make sense so let me quit while I’m ahead. But just so you know sweetheart, my feelings aren’t going anywhere so get with the program.
I wish I never would’ve went to New York.

..if no one understands what/who I’m talking about then thats quite fine. that means that you should mind your business =)