..I can’t sleep. Eating a huge bag of chocolate covered raisins watching these spoiled brats on MTV..
Today I redecorated my room. Doesn’t seem like a big deal to everyone else but a major deal to me. I despise change, ask anyone who truly knows me. I was at a point in my life where it seemed like I had the anti-midas touch. Everything was crumbling around me. Since March, I grew tired of sitting at the bottom and started climbing back up the spiral staircase of life. With the help of a few loved ones, I have managed to accomplish many things. Me redecorating my room was in a sense, putting the finishing touch on the personal changes I’ve made. One cannot grow until they accept that change is inevitable.
Energy and persistence conquer all things.
-Benjamin Franklin
So, i got up this morning prepared to write a blog about how life sucks and even my DREAMS are bad (the past couple nights, i got NO sleep whatsoever..) but i get home from school and i have not one..but TWO letters from my ♥! I know you people don’t give a damn but who cares? anywho.. off to prepare for Grey’s Anatomy (which includes getting my bootleg ass satellite box to work)
<3
“There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.”
-Nietzche
When: September 24, 2008 2:30-ish A.M.
Where: in bed
Recently, I’ve taken a liking to sitting in front of my house and looking at the stars. These profound bodies that will forever remind me of you ♥. No matter how lonely or upset with the World i may be at the moment..the stars always immediately calm me — just by hoping that you, too are looking at the same ones and thinking of me. I remember when we first met and would sit on the back of my car after I got home from work. You would ask me how much I loved you and without hesitation I would always reply “more than the stars babe”. Little moments like that or like you dancing for me to “Take it off” by Pharrell – or any song for that matter – are memories that no person, no distance can take from us. Those special memories are what makes my love for you grow everyday.
Even though I’m missing you like crazy and I wish you were here to reassure me that things will get better, I’m glad you’re gone. I’m glad you’re finally getting that chance to better your life and in the process making me a better/stronger person. I know the hard parts are yet to come and I’m fully prepared for them… Well maybe not fully 
. But I love you. And through love, all things are possible.
The stars will keep me company when I crave your affection. Not a second goes by that you aren’t on my mind.
“Loving someone is giving them the power to hurt you, but trusting them not to.” – Anonymous
More than the stars babe…
Watching tonight’s episode of MTB was horrible for me! They should put up a warning that the show contains “Lovey-Dovey..ness”. I mean, don’t get me wrong Q and Dawn are adorable.. just not what I want to see when the love of MY life is on the other side of the damn country. Dawn summed it up best at the end of the show when she said something along the lines of “The fairy tale you always dreamed of may seem impossible but the right person is out there..”
Maybe i’m just strung out on love..Maybe i’m just lonely. Or maybe its a weird combination of both. But I miss my hubby terribly. And I hope when he comes back, he’ll make me feel that fairy tale ish. I was taught not to hold my breath on things that may not happen. But damn…a girl can hope (there goes my 3rd wish.. peep the 1st blog if ur lost). Anywho.. Off to this story i still haven’t started reading.
Listening to: Danity Kane “Sucker for Love” (or something like that)
When: May 25th (which is also a birthday of someone i knew once upon a time)
Observed by: Geeks and Nerds in Spain
MAY 25th 2009 WILL BE CELEBRATED BY AS MUCH PEOPLE IN AMERICA THAT I CAN FIND (okay maybe only I’ll celebrate it but its the thought that counts..)
Rights:
1. The right to be even nerdier.
2. The right to not leave your house. ( i got this one down pact for the time being)
3. The right to not have a significant other and to be a virgin. (damn..)
4. The right to not like football or any other sport.
5. The right to associate with other nerds.
6. The right to have few friends (or none at all). (Perfect for me)
7. The right to have all the nerdy friends that you want.
8. The right to not be “in-style.”
9. The right to be overweight and have poor eyesight. (Half of this counts for me)
10. The right to show off your nerdiness.
11. The right to take over the world. (Y’all niggas be watchin too much Pinky and the Brain)
Responsibilities:
1. Be a nerd, no matter what.
2. Try and be nerdier than anyone else.
3. If there is a discussion about something nerdy, you must give your opinion.
4. Save any and all nerdy things you have.
5. Do everything you can to show off your nerdy stuff as though it were a “museum of nerdiness.”
6. Don’t be a generalized nerd. You must specialize in something. (Hmm…what can I specialize in??)
7. Attend every nerdy movie on opening night and buy every nerdy book before anyone else. (Parish, remember the Harry Potter thing we went to @ Borders??)
8. Wait in line on every opening night. If you can go in costume or at least with a related t-shirt, all the better.
9. Don’t waste your time on anything not related to nerddom.
10. Try to take over the world!
- So. I think I’m going to be a Nerd for Halloween. What do you think? Anyway..time to go read this story on Dee’s board i keep procrastinating on.
Listening to: N.E.R.D “Anti-Matter”
For a true nerd, check out www.bbcicecream.com/blog
i ♥ you Pharrell!
“Whoever said that perfection is unattainable, never fell in love” – Danielle Traylor
He may not be perfect for YOU, but he damn sure is perfect for ME. i absolutely adore my boyfriend!
WHY in the hell did i get into a car accident? That damned accident, even though part of the reason i started blogging again..has left me in a tight situation.
I am STUCK in this house day after day looking forward to my next outing..which unfortunately is school 
I wish I had the money to buy a new car and not have to worry about it. But the parents are telling me now that I have to take driving lessons. WTH. I wish my ♥ was here and not in Kentucky! But whatever, I’m not Aladdin so i might as well not even mention the 3rd wish… Let me go find something interesting to do with my time. If not, I’ll be baaacck..
Listening to: Jah Cure “Reflections”
